Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Going through withdraws
Ugh.. I can't wait till I have a full time career, bigger living space and a "yard" so I can finally own a dog again. I can seriously say I'm going through dog withdraws!! I've been looking into possibly fostering a dog from the local shelter, but unfortunately I'm not so sure if I actually would have the time and space as of now. *sigh* Maybe I'll just start going down to the shelter and volunteer or something.. I just gotta get my dog fix or I'ma go crazy!!
Monday, August 29, 2011
What to do...
I'm so unsure of this situation I've been presented with... I have a funny feeling that its just gonna turn out like the last time, and last time wasn't pretty...
How do you go back to being friends with someone who treated you like you've never been treated. Made you feel lower than low. To this day, their harsh words can still draw a tear from your eye... How do you move on.. how do you not hold that against them.
Isn't the old saying live and learn?? I sure learned.. about a 100 times over. But what do you do when that person claims its different now, that they have changed. Do you believe them..? Do you do the right thing.. the thing that Jesus would do... give them another chance because they may have changed, even though you are taking a huge risk of being beatin into the dirt again... why should I. They don't even believe in God.
Why am I even giving this person the time of day..? I honestly can't answer it myself. I just hate not getting along with people, but it seems like being nice and giving people chances just gets you screwed over in the end.
My trust has been broken, I find it hard to believe anything that is said.. even the smallest of things I question when it comes to talking with this person. So many questions, so many unknown answers... even if I was told an answer.. I can't honestly say I'd believe it.
I'm so conflicted...its eating at me.. I just don't know what to do... what do I do.
How do you go back to being friends with someone who treated you like you've never been treated. Made you feel lower than low. To this day, their harsh words can still draw a tear from your eye... How do you move on.. how do you not hold that against them.
Isn't the old saying live and learn?? I sure learned.. about a 100 times over. But what do you do when that person claims its different now, that they have changed. Do you believe them..? Do you do the right thing.. the thing that Jesus would do... give them another chance because they may have changed, even though you are taking a huge risk of being beatin into the dirt again... why should I. They don't even believe in God.
Why am I even giving this person the time of day..? I honestly can't answer it myself. I just hate not getting along with people, but it seems like being nice and giving people chances just gets you screwed over in the end.
My trust has been broken, I find it hard to believe anything that is said.. even the smallest of things I question when it comes to talking with this person. So many questions, so many unknown answers... even if I was told an answer.. I can't honestly say I'd believe it.
I'm so conflicted...its eating at me.. I just don't know what to do... what do I do.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
BBBBBBDAY!!!!!
TODAYS MY 21st BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!! And its been amazing so far!!!
The festivities started last night at the tattoo shop, where I got a card, keychain and a cake from my boss(who is the best boss man ever btw.) I ended up staying late, so at the stroke of midnight he gave me a bottle of black spiced rum, and I took my first legal drink.. haha I was just a bit excited(ok I was running around the shop yelling it was my birthday, while periodically dancing)
As I drove home from the shop I sang at the top of my lungs, and reflected over the past 21 years. Thought about all the experiences I've had, the people I've met, the friends I've made and lost and the shit thats gone down... its been a hell of 21 year.. and I'm so lookin forward to the years to come.
As for this morning I was up bright and early at 6:15 to go to work. As I walked through the door to watch the "Chunk, and Jobsecurity((lol)) the 3 oldest screamed happy birthday and gave me hugs. I got a card with some dough in it and a bottle of JACK! haha Jason asked Lindsey if it was a good idea to give there nanny a bottle of whiskey(LOL) and she said yea, as long as its not cracked open when they get home! haha.... So as of now my phone has been blowing up with notifications with wishes of happy birthdayness :)) Its been a great day of birth so far... hopefully I'll remember the rest!
The festivities started last night at the tattoo shop, where I got a card, keychain and a cake from my boss(who is the best boss man ever btw.) I ended up staying late, so at the stroke of midnight he gave me a bottle of black spiced rum, and I took my first legal drink.. haha I was just a bit excited(ok I was running around the shop yelling it was my birthday, while periodically dancing)
As I drove home from the shop I sang at the top of my lungs, and reflected over the past 21 years. Thought about all the experiences I've had, the people I've met, the friends I've made and lost and the shit thats gone down... its been a hell of 21 year.. and I'm so lookin forward to the years to come.
As for this morning I was up bright and early at 6:15 to go to work. As I walked through the door to watch the "Chunk, and Jobsecurity((lol)) the 3 oldest screamed happy birthday and gave me hugs. I got a card with some dough in it and a bottle of JACK! haha Jason asked Lindsey if it was a good idea to give there nanny a bottle of whiskey(LOL) and she said yea, as long as its not cracked open when they get home! haha.... So as of now my phone has been blowing up with notifications with wishes of happy birthdayness :)) Its been a great day of birth so far... hopefully I'll remember the rest!
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Sweatin
Late night last night. With a few drinks involved... So today I decided I was going to do something active and work off those adult beverage calories. Thus I took on the undertaking of long boarding down to my gym(which is 3 miles away ((one way)) to go work out.
It actually turned out being very relaxing! even though I sweated the whole entire time like a fat man with a fatter man laying on top of him in a bed of coals. I even got to use my new skate pack which was awesome.. even thought it took a bit to get used to, because it threw off my balance when I went to pump.
So I long boarded roughly 6 miles to work my legs, and then swam around a 1500 to work my arms.. all n' all I feel good :)
Now its time to clean my home, and clean my sweaty self up and get ready for one of my buddies 21st bdays!!! and remember.. mine is in 4 days! :D ha haha
It actually turned out being very relaxing! even though I sweated the whole entire time like a fat man with a fatter man laying on top of him in a bed of coals. I even got to use my new skate pack which was awesome.. even thought it took a bit to get used to, because it threw off my balance when I went to pump.
So I long boarded roughly 6 miles to work my legs, and then swam around a 1500 to work my arms.. all n' all I feel good :)
Now its time to clean my home, and clean my sweaty self up and get ready for one of my buddies 21st bdays!!! and remember.. mine is in 4 days! :D ha haha
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Countin the days till colder weather...
It may seem crazy that I'm dreaming if snow in the middle of summer; but none the less it's true. Last night I found myself shopping for a new snowboarding coat for the season, along with watching boarding videos... This definetly didn't help my longing for snow! I'm so stoked for this season it's not even funny.
Last year I concentrated hard core on my technique, stance, and all around carving. I am super excited to report that this year I'll be throwing my self full force at the park, determined to get down rails/jumps. I'm eager to learn more and also get my level one in instructing. Even though I've only been boarding for 2 years(not counting this season) it's somthin that I am truly passionate about... My only regret is that I wish I woulda jumped into the sport sooner.
My goal this season is to become all around comfortable and confident in the park; even though some of my favorite boarders will not be there to teach/join me :(. All I can do is squeeze every little piece of info and tip out of the remaining instructors...
Which reminds me, we are going to have a whole new staff up at the peaks!!! More than half of our old crew left last year... Which sucks ass.. But this means, way more people to get to know!! It's gonna be a whole new family(hopefully with less drama)
Another upside to this season..?! I'll be old enough to chill in the bar, that's right, I can now legally snowboard drunk!! Which reminds me, dont do that, it'd a bad idea haha. Needless to say I'm looking very much forward to this season, I know I'm going to be a huge influence on the noobies(muhahahaha) even though I'm only a second year myself.
I'll fo sho give you all glimpses of what it's like to work at a ski resort... It's quite a party..
Peace out for now.. I'm Brit, and this is my life.
Last year I concentrated hard core on my technique, stance, and all around carving. I am super excited to report that this year I'll be throwing my self full force at the park, determined to get down rails/jumps. I'm eager to learn more and also get my level one in instructing. Even though I've only been boarding for 2 years(not counting this season) it's somthin that I am truly passionate about... My only regret is that I wish I woulda jumped into the sport sooner.
My goal this season is to become all around comfortable and confident in the park; even though some of my favorite boarders will not be there to teach/join me :(. All I can do is squeeze every little piece of info and tip out of the remaining instructors...
Which reminds me, we are going to have a whole new staff up at the peaks!!! More than half of our old crew left last year... Which sucks ass.. But this means, way more people to get to know!! It's gonna be a whole new family(hopefully with less drama)
Another upside to this season..?! I'll be old enough to chill in the bar, that's right, I can now legally snowboard drunk!! Which reminds me, dont do that, it'd a bad idea haha. Needless to say I'm looking very much forward to this season, I know I'm going to be a huge influence on the noobies(muhahahaha) even though I'm only a second year myself.
I'll fo sho give you all glimpses of what it's like to work at a ski resort... It's quite a party..
Peace out for now.. I'm Brit, and this is my life.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Funny the way it is
How is it that I let so much time pass in between blog posts?! It's been atleast a year since I've last posted anything, man oh man how time flys! I'll try to recap very quickly so you all can catch up with me ;)
Like always I've been living and learning. As far as the relationship business goes I'm done with that for a good while. My last official relationship lasted for almost 2 years. I learned alot about myself and people in general.. There was an underlinig reason that I ended it, but as time goes on more and more reasons surface. The main reason were that we both were on a different path in life. He wants to stay in good ole IN, get married and settle down. My desires couldn't be more opposite! I'm on the fast track of making a career and traveling! So, I ended it.
Living the single life couldnt be better as of now; although in the past 8 months I've delt with more drama and craziness that I ever thought possible coming from one person... But I've had some times of my life and have definitely changed. Its sad to say my views toward men and relationships have takin a sour turn. But I'm desperately trying not to hold past wrongs against new people... It's a difficult task to say the least. It doesn't help the situation that I've become very emotionally detached , which no matter what people say, it's no way to go through life.
But in a lighter note I've had the opportunity to travel!! This past march I made my way out west :D. And how that has lifted my spirits and fueled me you will never know! I visited CO, Vegas and UT... Snowboarding was def the highlight! To jump off a 10/15 foot cliff drop into fresh white pow makes my soul sing!! Which reminds me, that is one of my occupations now. Yes, I am a Snowboard instructior and I love it with all my heart.. Which is why in 2 years I plan to move out west.. That gives me enough time to save up some money and finish my tattoo apprenticeship.
Which brings me to another big change in my life, I am also studying to become a tattooist!! Could I ask for a better job!?(besides snowboarding, of course). I think not!! I love it to death, to say the least. I'm constantly challenged artistically and I get to meet people from every walk of life.. Needless to say my priorities are straight! :) I'm concentrating on me, what makes me happy. It may sound selfish, but if you aren't happy how do you expect in influence others in a positive manner??
A few more things before I wrap this up... I am finally living on my own, with my best friend in the whole wide world as my roommate. Horses have taken to the back burnner, doesnt mean I have lost my passion for them, I just don't have the time and resources at this point in my life. My 21st birthday is in 8 days!!!!!! (bout to get wild, haha) oh and I'm on a mission to transform my body to the one I've always wanted... Workout 24/7!! Until next time, I'm Brit.. And this is my life.
Like always I've been living and learning. As far as the relationship business goes I'm done with that for a good while. My last official relationship lasted for almost 2 years. I learned alot about myself and people in general.. There was an underlinig reason that I ended it, but as time goes on more and more reasons surface. The main reason were that we both were on a different path in life. He wants to stay in good ole IN, get married and settle down. My desires couldn't be more opposite! I'm on the fast track of making a career and traveling! So, I ended it.
Living the single life couldnt be better as of now; although in the past 8 months I've delt with more drama and craziness that I ever thought possible coming from one person... But I've had some times of my life and have definitely changed. Its sad to say my views toward men and relationships have takin a sour turn. But I'm desperately trying not to hold past wrongs against new people... It's a difficult task to say the least. It doesn't help the situation that I've become very emotionally detached , which no matter what people say, it's no way to go through life.
But in a lighter note I've had the opportunity to travel!! This past march I made my way out west :D. And how that has lifted my spirits and fueled me you will never know! I visited CO, Vegas and UT... Snowboarding was def the highlight! To jump off a 10/15 foot cliff drop into fresh white pow makes my soul sing!! Which reminds me, that is one of my occupations now. Yes, I am a Snowboard instructior and I love it with all my heart.. Which is why in 2 years I plan to move out west.. That gives me enough time to save up some money and finish my tattoo apprenticeship.
Which brings me to another big change in my life, I am also studying to become a tattooist!! Could I ask for a better job!?(besides snowboarding, of course). I think not!! I love it to death, to say the least. I'm constantly challenged artistically and I get to meet people from every walk of life.. Needless to say my priorities are straight! :) I'm concentrating on me, what makes me happy. It may sound selfish, but if you aren't happy how do you expect in influence others in a positive manner??
A few more things before I wrap this up... I am finally living on my own, with my best friend in the whole wide world as my roommate. Horses have taken to the back burnner, doesnt mean I have lost my passion for them, I just don't have the time and resources at this point in my life. My 21st birthday is in 8 days!!!!!! (bout to get wild, haha) oh and I'm on a mission to transform my body to the one I've always wanted... Workout 24/7!! Until next time, I'm Brit.. And this is my life.
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